It turns out that the u/s machine at the RE office is only good to a certain point. I am sure they aren't used to having many patients there at almost 12 weeks getting vaginal u/s. Good news though, we were able to get the babies.. They were moving around so much he couldn't get accurate measurements though. His estimation for each was:
Hopper "A" 12w0d, hb of 178
Hopper "B" 12w3d, hb of 175
Is it weird that I was looking at the screen while these two babies were moving around and thinking to myself, " are these really my babies"? I still feel a disconnect that this is really happening to me. Although Al and I never planned for twins, we love them so much already. I know that I will do whatever it takes to give them the best life and let them feel so loved and wanted. I will also share with them how hard we tried and our struggles to get them here. I could never be ashamed of what we went through and I will never hide what we went through to anyone.
Okay back to appointment. I told Dr. H that I might not be able to get in for the NT scan because they were currently overbooked already. He told me that he was going to send an email to the Director at MFM and get me in for the scan. At the end my doctor truly came through for me. Although we had to get additional treatment in Chicago, he supported us and has helped me so much within the past 12 weeks. I am so grateful.
Here is a "bad" picture of the hoppers. Dr. H said they are getting to big to pick up with the vaginal wand.
I just want those of you following me that are still working through losses and trying to get pregnant to know that I do think of you all the time. I hope my story gives you some hope and faith that you will succeed. I know some days it doesn't seem like it. It happened for us at the very end of our journey when we had decided to quit treatments and move on. I know it sounds like a total cliche, but it is true.
Just received a phone call from MFM office. I go in today at 1:00 for my NT scan!