I am feeling much better today. Guess I just needed a nice breakdown to get all of my feelings out. Thanks for the comments and suggestions yesterday. I think many couples, especially with no infertility coverage freak out over the cost of multiple cycles of ivf. I think I was looking at it the wrong way though. I should be grateful that we were able to do this. There are so many people out there that because of finances can't get a loan or save up enough money for one ivf cycle. For that I am grateful and I need to take my own advice and just breathe. Start stims tomorrow. This is actually my favorite part of ivf!