Since my big bleed last Friday, I have been spotting on and off. It has always remained dark brown and usually only when I wipe. Today it was a little heavier and has left a few spots on my panty liner. Can I say how much I hate blood and pregnancy? Every single time I've had blood and pregnancy it has ended badly, every time.
Does it make me feel better that my clinic keeps telling me that it is "completely normal" and " don't worry"? They have told me this a few times in the past so I don't rely to hard on " the reassuring phone calls". I was told that I have to wait until next Wednesday for my u/s. They want to see a week of full growth with the babies.
Have I mentioned how much I hate waiting? Well I do.
I remind myself daily of the great news so far. The great hcg levels, progesterone levels, growth of babies and heartbeats. There is no reason why they shouldn't be growing daily and doing fine. I also fight the feelings that one or both aren't going to make it and this journey is over for us. No take home babies or babies after all these years of trying.
Gosh this is so stressful.....
4 more days until u/s.
I did get a new symptom that started yesterday. Exhaustion.
Sorry if I sound like
Debbie Downer, but I am so scared of this process.