I remember for the last few years following many woman on here that graduated from trying to conceive to pregnant after infertility. The most common post I read was how they felt guilty being pregnant and leaving others behind. My first comment always was " you should not feel guilty for being pregnant. All of us have struggled so much and we all deserve to have this. Sit back and be grateful and enjoy". Wow I never thought I would be eating those words. Sitting on the other side of the fence it was so easy for me to tell woman that and mean it. Now that I am here and seeing others that have struggled so hard to get pregnant and lose a pregnancy or still be in the trenches month after month.... well it breaks my heart. It also makes me look back at the past 8 weeks and wonder if I am coming off whiny because of the pregnancy issues I am having. I know most woman would love to be in my situation right now. I can promise you that I am grateful to be at this point. I have said from day one that I will be grateful for the time I was given with these babies, whether it was one week or for 18 + years. As scary as it has been, I have also never felt so blessed in my life. All the years of treatment, surgeries, losses, everything, it was worth it. For no matter how long I have with them, it was worth and I will never ever take that for granted. Ever.
For those of you still struggling and those of you who recently lost your pregnancy, I won't tell you that things will be better, because that seems very unfair of me right now. I will tell you that in the end I hope you believe your struggle was worth all the tears, the pain, the anger, and the time you fought so hard for.