Today I am a NICU mom of two babies. They are 21 days old. I never realized how truly exhausting it really was. With that being said, there is no other place I would rather be. I watch my two beautiful daughters grow stronger daily. They look at me with these amazing smiles and such sweet faces. I look past all the IV's and the monitors daily. I remember the first week they were in the NICU, it was so overwhelming. I remember crying and crying. My heart hurt so badly seeing all those lines and seeing the monitors beeping red because of the Bradys (Bradycardia) spells. All the nurses phones start ringing and it can be very upsetting to see it until you get used to being around it. I also felt horrible they were in the incubators and haven't been with each other since pregnancy. They looked so lonely. I think the worse part for me and still is until this day, the leaving them everyday. No matter how many hours we spend with them, at the end of the day I do have to leave them and still suffer from such guilt.
As of today, Al and I have finally got a schedule together and it seems to be working well. He wakes up about 4:30 every morning and goes into work early. He works until 6 :00 and then walks over to see the girls in the morning. He spends about an hour holding and changing them and then heads back to work. At his lunch break he walks over and does kangaroo care for another hour or so and then goes back to work. I get up and get to work around 7:00 and work until about 3:00 or 3:30 and then head over to the hospital and see the girls until 7:00 or so and head home. Al makes dinner for us and we try to spend some adult time and conversation with each other. It has been so important to us that we keep our lines of communication up with each other. I am also on a 2 hour pumping schedule throughout the day. It is busy, busy, but it seems to be working. I also have to remember that this is only temporary. We will have our babies home soon. Hopefully Lilah can come home for a few months before her heart surgery.
Here is a pic of their Halloween outfits!!!