This is my first week at home with the girls alone. I give ANY woman of multiples serious credit! I know that most of the time I don't say much because my friends with a singleton get so offended. The truth is, raising multiples is harder. I don't want to take anything away from others, because I know that raising a baby in general is hard work. This week has tested my patience to say the least. Lilah screams ALL THE TIME. Bloody murder screams. She pukes ALL THE TIME. We can't keep a bottle down. She gags and pukes and pukes and pukes. I seriously wash about 20 burp clothes a day and about 8 or 9 outfits. She is hardly ever happy or smiling. She doesn't want to nap. When I do lay her down she will start screaming in about 10 minutes and wake her sister up. I know how much I love my girls and I know how hard I have worked for them. I won't apologize for venting either. I know some people will think I sound ungrateful and that is okay. I just want Lilah to get past whatever is going on with her. The other day she pulled her tube five times. Luckily we are at 100% bottle feeds now, but still have to keep the tube in for all her medications. I also talked to her peditrician who suggested I start her on 1 teaspoon of cereal in her bottle to help gain weight and help keep her food down. I wasn't set on the idea at all because she is a preemie. I am now starting to consider it. Al has another call into the Cardiologist today. She has mentioned starting Lilah on reflux medications. I am also having him ask her about implementing cereal. I was scared it could effect her heart condition. I just want to try whatever I can to help her. I am tired and so frustrated. And I am definitely not cut out to be a stay at home mom. I thought I wanted to be, but it is clear now that I am not. Any of you moms that stay at home with your babies, I seriously give you credit, you rock!
Well enough whining for today. Sorry I am stressed to the absolute max.
On a good note, because I always like to wrap things up with positive. Lilah is gaining weight and now is at 6 lbs 15 oz. We have her Cardiologist appointment next week and will find out when her surgery is. I love being a mom and I love all of my girls and know how blessed beyond measure I am.
We also got our professional pics back of the girls. Here are a few of my favorite pictures.