Accepting new members

Quick note:

I am accepting new members into my infertility facebook group. We've had such success that most of the woman have graduated from infertility to pregnancy and gone on to be moms. If you are interested please send a request to the group. I don't allow any drama. We have a great group of woman who are amazing! We have a diverse group of ladies:

Some have been trying for many many years
Others decided to adopt
Some are going ivf route, others are trying naturally and/or iui/timed intercourse
Some have underlying immune issues
We have primary and secondary suffers in our group


Here is the link if you are interested:

https://www.facebook.com/groups/209836362407126/

I would love to hear from you. You may be a great fit for the group or you may not, but it never hurts to give it a shot.

2014 is going to rock!

Well I made it through another dreaded Christmas and not because I don't have a baby to share with everyone during the holidays. Mainly because I hate shopping, wrapping, cleaning, driving, and sitting around. All and all this turned out to be a lovely holiday though. I actually enjoyed it more then the previous years. On Christmas eve Al and I headed to Arkansas so we could spend a few days with his family. On the way we decided to stop at the Hard Rock Casino/Resort in Tulsa. It was a very good decision. I ended up winning!

I actually cashed out with over $800.00 and put $10.00 in this machine. I love Lord of the Rings so I figured the game should be fun and it was :)

We made our way to Arkansas and spent the first night at Al's parents house. The second night his other sister and her husband, two kids made it down, so we opted to get a nice hotel room on Christmas night and it was perfect! In fact I think we might start the casino/hotel room as a tradition on Christmas travel every year.

Al took this picture of me telling stories to our niece and nephew. It was really funny because they were totally engrossed in whatever I was talking about, but don't remember :)

On our way back home yesterday we stopped by the casino again hoping that luck would still be with us............... and it was. Al won another $400.00. From the casino we stopped by my sisters house to give my two nieces their presents. I am upset that I didn't get a picture of them :( We bought my youngest a 3 gallon glow fish tank and set it up for her. She was BEYOND thrilled. When her dad got home from work she said " Dad come look at my gift from uncle Al and aunt Neesha, it is AWESOME!

So finally we pulled back home around 7 last night so I could work today. Like I said, a pretty darn good Christmas this year.

I am really looking forward to 2014 for many reasons (some exciting and others not).  As you all know, we have put a time limit on ttc and 2014 is the last year we will actively go through treatment, see the RE and do any type of medication protocol. In one sense I am very scared that it won't happen this year and our years of infertility will end with empty arms. On the other hand I am excited to know that we can start a new phase in our lives and no more baby stress. It takes so much out of your emotionally, physically and financially. By the end of this year Al and I will be at peace either way and that is something I very much look forward to . We are also buying us a new rv this spring for all of our camping trips! We have our year planned for all our getaways and that is pretty exciting. We had planned on going to Florida, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen. There were some scheduling conflicts and  life happens also. We decided to take a week vacation to Colorado instead and try some skiing and white water rafting. Also decided to take Cierra to New York for next Christmas and that is going to be her graduation present from us. (she doesn't know). We have some really nice camping trips in the works with our new rv. For my birthday we are going to reserved a suite at the Hard Rock Casino/Resort. Plus we have a nice little anniversary trip planned to Arkansas. So lots of stuff going on this year. I really love to travel and we have been so blessed to be able to do this hobby of ours.

I will also (hopefully) be starting my IVIG treatments in January sometime. I am taking this month off from RE and just taking Femara. Next month I will jump back on board with Follistim/IUI and my infusions and go full steam ahead for the rest of the year. In February we will have been fighting infertility for 4 years. I will do a separate post on that when the time comes.

Like I said, lots going on.

Oh before I forget. I leave you with my one of my favorite Christmas presents from my sis!

I hope that everyone had a nice Christmas regardless if you are still in the trenches of fighting infertility, pregnant after infertility, parenting after infertility or adopting.....

A litte of this and a little of that

Thought I would do a "this & that" post today. 

We had some ice over the weekend and I for one love how everything looks covered in ice and with the sun shining on it. Such beauty. Although Al has some tree branches to clean up within the next few days. We have some that fell on our roof and our poor Magnolia tree took a pretty good hit :(

Today we celebrated our little family Christmas before heading out of state to have Christmas with Al's family. I look at these pictures from this morning and it is a reminder of how truly lucky and blessed my life is.
My beautiful necklace from Al

 I really hope that you all have a Merry Christmas and be sure to remind yourself of at least one thing to be thankful for this season.


TTC news:

Today is 10DPO and this cycle was a bust. Going to take the next month off from RE and just do a Femara cycle. Plan on getting back to Follistim/IUI at the end of January 2014.

It's Friday!

Funny Infertility Friday is here :)

Completely fed up.

This post is non infertility related and has to be said. First and foremost I am so tired of the people using religion to give them a right to decide who is worthy and who isn't. I have never hid the fact that I do not believe in God nor any religion. I am a firm believer that I live my life to the fullest and do the best for others and for myself that is possible. I try on a daily basis not to be hateful or harmful to others. I also respect everyone's right to their own faith as long as it " doesn't spew hate to others that don't believe in the same things" This is not being said toward those of the Christian faith only, this is being said to anyone that feels they are pass any kind of judgement and have not made mistake in their own life. Yes I do understand that many religions such as Christianity live by the words in a book and if you feel that someone is going to burn in hell because they are a homosexual, then that is your right, but don't feel like you are being persecuted when others don't wholeheartedly agree with you and get on your ban wagon on hate. Why can't we all just live our lives and do the best that we have control of daily? Save yourself before you start worrying about saving the world. I am sorry but I am so damn sick and tired of the hypocrites in this world! Just so you know, hate is not justified because the book you are reading states it is okay in certain circumstances. 

So Duck Dynasty guys
 In the GQ profile, the 67-year-old Duck Commander founder called being gay a “sin” and compared it to bestiality. “It seems like, to me, a vagina — as a man — would be more desirable than a man’s anus,” he told the mag. “That’s just me. I’m just thinking: There’s more there! She’s got more to offer… But hey, sin: It’s not logical, my man. It’s just not logical… Start with homosexual behavior and just morph out from there. Bestiality, sleeping around with this woman and that woman and that woman and those men.”

 and Sara Palins of the world................ try saying something nice about a person or doing a kind act for a person you feel is committing a sin. I would think that is what a true Christian person would do? Show love instead of spreading more hate in this world.

I have many friends that are very religious and you should know me well enough to know I am not attacking your faith, but I am standing up for what I feel is wrong in this world. Also please don't feel like you need to save me. I for one am totally happy and at peace with my beliefs.

Thankful

On a daily basis I see people who complain and complain about anything and everything. For such a long time I couldn't figure out how so many people are so miserable in their lives. Now I see that it is just the way some of us are and will always continue to be regardless. This makes me work even harder to see the beautiful things in life daily. Take a moment and be thankful for something, no matter how small :)

Try to remember that no matter how bad your days are, you are the only one with the power to change your outlook.

Challenge

I challenge every person who reads my blog to do one good deed selflessly for someone within the next 30 days. Will you accept?

I would love to hear about your good deed :)

IVIG Treatments

As you know I have been searching high and low, under every rock in Oklahoma to find a place that would administer IVIG. Every corner I turned it was a total dead end and everyone refused to do the treatment because an out of state doctor was referring the order. Well a few weeks ago a fellow blogger and someone who is also going through immune issues suggested I contact a Coram Center and see if they would administer. She also had an out of state order and was able to get it done through them. I quickly googled Coram Infusion Center and nothing showed up in Oklahoma ( another dead end). I pretty well moved on. Well Friday on my facebook a Coram Center popped up on the right hand side along with all the advertisements and I clicked on it. Low and behold there is a Coram Center in Oklahoma! It was to late Friday to call so I waited until this morning. The first gentlemen that answered the phone told me no that they will not do it with an out of state referral, but he would transfer me to administration just to make sure. After talking to Susan for about 15 minutes, it looks like getting IVIG in Oklahoma might be an option. They  have a LONG list of needs before they will put everything together, but it is a real shot at finally having this done. She said it would take weeks to get everything in place with insurance etc. That is fine because I am in middle of cycle right now and will have to take next month off. So everything ( fingers crossed) should be in place for a end of January infusion? I am going to try not to get very excited, but definitely going to stay hopeful that we won't need to go to Chicago to have one treatment done next year. If I am able to get it done here in Oklahoma there is only a $30 co-pay ( according to my insurance company) and I will be able to get all the infusions!

Fingers crossed...........................

I don't want to finish this journey and ever question that we didn't do everything possible. Now it is a very real possibility that question won't ever cross my mind :)

Test Trial Wordpress

My new link:

http://justtonisha.wordpress.com

Change of plans

I might have did leave things very dramatic the other day. Later in the afternoon my clinic called with my E2 results and even though I had 7+ mature follicles ( what I saw) and according to the clinic 10+ mature follicles, my E2 levels had dropped to 753. 

 

They still insisted that we not go forward with TI and actually recommended that I start aygestin ( to stop ovulation and reset cycle). I was up in the air all day on what decision was the best one for us and depending on what the E2 levels looked like would make the ultimate decision. I told the clinic what with my levels being that low there was no way that all the follicles were still growing, but instead dropping off or dying. So my husband and I made the decision to move forward. I did a Ovidrel trigger shot on Tuesday evening and ovulated yesterday. I know in my heart that we made the right decision and with the fact my last dose of Follistim was the Friday before, I am very confident that we only had a few (maybe 3 or 4) follicles that contained an egg. I will be out next cycle regardless because of all the left over cysts I will have from this cycle. Hoping this month works because the next month we can try is in February and that is the month we got pregnant and lost circle. I try not to hold onto things that I have no control of as far as my losses, but I would prefer to not go through that experience on the same month as last year. 

Guess we will see what the next two weeks brings?