Admitted

I went in for my MFM appointment this morning. Both girls were measured. Baby  A is 2lbs 7oz and Baby B is 2lbs14oz. I told the tech about the groin pain and pressured I had been experiencing for the past week or so. She decided to do an internal u/s to make sure my cervix was still long and closed. She finished up and I asked how everything looked. Her response was she was going to show the doctor and he would come in and talk to me. She also asked that I stay undressed in case he wanted to do another exam. At that moment I knew things weren't good. After about 15-20 minutes the doctor came in and said he was concerned because the u/s showed my cervix was open. Cue internal freak out. I wanted to cry at that moment, but I kept my shit together. He did an internal exam and told me I was dialated to 1 cm and my cervix was open. He wanted to admit me to the hospital for steroids. I asked if it would close back up, and he said no at this point they hope to just keep it like is and for it not to open anymore. I truly didn't expect for this to happen today, not at all. I was admitted this morning around 9:30. Since then I had my first dose of steroids, penicillin, and Procardia to stop contractions. I have been told over and over that even if the girls come within the next few days, that things will be okay. The girls will be okay. As of now I don't have much information where we go from here. I know I will be here for two days at least. At that point they will determine if I need to stay longer or if I will be released. So much is up in the air and that is what scares me the most. I wonder when the girls will be born. Now or weeks from now? Will I go back to work? Will I know if released that I am in fact dialating more ( Since I had no idea this time). So many questions and so little answers. For now I am thankful that Lilah and Olivia are still inside where they belong and I  will take it day by day. Who knows, I could still make it to 37-38 weeks. Crazier things have happened :)